My relationship with my hijab swings between wanting to be a badass hijabi feminist who takes no shit from no one and destroys patriarchy in her wake and wanting to never wear it again because I’m so sick of people assuming that I can’t be a “real” muslim without it on my head.
And everything imaginable in between.
No offence, but your whole mentality towards the hijab is all wrong. On both aspects you’re simply wanting to prove a point.
Hijab isn’t meant for that, it’s a religious covering that’s observed for the sake of one’s Lord, just like prayer is. What others say, or how they feel towards it matter little in the face of it.